I'm A Lie

No one really knows
Who I truly am inside
If I were to tell you,
You’d know that I’d lied

I don’t mean to be this way
I feel like I’m in hell
I’m a fucking coward
In a worthless fucking shell

I crush the truth underfoot
Hide it deep below
Under so many layers of bullshit
So you’ll never know

I long to tell you who I really am
But I can never say the words
I could never tell you what I feel
No matter how much it hurts

Hidden inside of me, buried beneath the lies
She will never be released
I just hope one day she dies
Until that day I’ll silently scream the truth never heard
It could all go wrong with one fucking single word

I don’t want to show how weak I am,
How broken up I’ve always been
I don’t want the cracks to be seen,
The flaws of a little heart shattered and torn
Scars that will never conceal
Love that she’s given with so many doubts of it being real.

So I’ll continue to smile and laugh and pretend its all okay
When Im actually dying inside every single day.
I am what I hate most
I am a lie.